I wrote this in my daily morning journal on the 17th November 2021. I had an explosion of insights from both my journey and the people I am speaking to. I only ever share my writings from my journal when i feel it can be useful to someone else. I leave it unedited so you can really feel my creative energy.
I don’t need a week off for rest because I’m always rested, calm, peaceful, balanced. But I need a week off for aliveness and inspiration.
The life force is what drives me, its what’s always driven me. Calm for me is not doing nothing, its being stimulated, thrilled with the ecstasy of life.
I spent so long telling myself that I don’t need thrills and it has been good because its allowed me to see what are cheap thrills and what are real internal life force ecstatic thrills.
This is what I crave, but not longer from a place of desperation and running away to them, not needing it for my life to feel meaningful. But simply for the sheer fun of it!!!
Its personal development and soul expansion. I put this judgy eye on fun, shunned it and went into monk mode and now i have come out on the other end once again long for fun, because why not.
Its like seeing an old friend, i want friends in my life who i bellow laugh with, i enjoy that. Love, connection, bliss, enjoyment, adventure and excitement, i enjoy that.
I don’t need to isolate myself or prove something to myself to say “I don’t need anyone or anything”. I’ve proven that already and i get the medal. Hooray, well now real reality hits in the most loving way rather than a needy or lack way.
It taps me on the shoulder with its cool but warm, magnetic energy. Like the birds that are talking to me right now, like the sun glistening on the beautiful green frozen grass…. to say, you are alive!!!
You are a living organism full of electricity, you have the command to enjoy the full expression of life. Not from a place of meeting psychological illusory lack and missingness, but simply for the life blood running through you.
Wind moves, nature moves, you move.
The life inside you sings a sweet harmony and it purrs like a feline, with a warm belly full of golden light.
The life lives and moves, the cells dance like the animals in the Madagascar movie. Its a perfect harmony, glistening with the moon lights and the wind moving in and out of our mighty lungs.
What a gift life is, life is not for passiveness and nobles seats of “I don’t need this”.
Its as noble as sitting inside a theme park and saying “thrills don’t impress me”, while everyone else is having fun. Drink your noble tea with your noble smile, deluding yourself into believing that you have reached some place.
Just dance, drop what you think, dance. Let the life dance through you and never stop.
The music of bliss, love and creativity is playing all around you. You must listen to it and dance until life decides to stop the music for you.
You have the gift of choice in each moment, nothing is stopping you from choosing but the noble tea you choose to sip on.
Raj
WAIT – To underscore the article. Personal development/spiritual development is not going inside and closing off the world (I did this!). Its a tool to allow you to live life fully, inside and out. Infact it is a level of mastery where there is no difference between inside and out. Its all one, and its all fun 🙂 A dance of life.
Questions to consider
- Whats your noble tea, the “I don’t need____” that is secretly constricting your life force?
- What makes you feel most alive?
- What do you really want?
- What’s stopping you?
Drop me a comment below or private message me. I want to hear what your ponderings may be. I will also send you a resources to help you on your way
Love, Raj